As Far

With words she'd carved from stifled tears
She trimmed the laughter off the world
And if she knew her leverage
It didn't show
She wouldn't glow

As far as I'm concerned
There's no one else that feels the way I do
So please don't kill my lie
Until I've seen this damn night through
Miserable company
Does nothing much but dim this spoiled hell
Already dark enough
As far as I can tell

When hope's a loaded gun in sight
Awaiting the wrong hands
The blood flies often from the only
One who understands

Who understands?

It's all a form of penetration
Just not the one preferred
No other options left, you claim
And only silence heard

The self-indulgence of her sigh
Wrought suicide on her own goals
With no resistance found
Her armies fled
The rest, all dead

As far as I have heard
There's nothing else, save screaming, in my soul
Perhaps a faint remorse
Demanding I surrender all control
The child I used to be
Would not have shrieked from blatant terrors some
Demand I should not fear
As far as I have come

If you could see me
Defenseless and so clear
If you could hear my thoughts
I doubt you would be here
If you could understand
The power that you yield
Would you reap all that you've sewn
Or burn down the whole field?

Within a prison of desires
She scribed a wish no one would read
Final admittance of herself to be a fantasy

As far as I can see
There's no escape from what will not attack
And yet I feel the blows
Of closure's ever-present lack
And if I still posessed
The wits I swore could once outblind the sun
I'd clear my head and flee
As far as I could run