this town had some thing
deep inside of me
and now its a struggle just to breath

and this used to be my own safety
the side walks the doorknob
and the memories are grey
I'd rather keep them all that way

cuz i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this!
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this now

look at me
I'm a mess
a mess of ??
that i never wanted to be

i can't relive
i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this
i can't go back to all this NOW

all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this
i can't go back to all this NOW!