Checkmate

Keep trying to go forward
but the wind pushes me back
I try to change my ways
but I fall into old habits
Just when I think that i'm past that
I wake up with a sudden slap to my face
dealt by the cold hand of the realization
that I still wake up to thoughts of you

Has it been a year already?
Road less traveled, the ride was unsteady
and I'm thinking that I've been fooling myself
Has it been as bad as they say?
It's just a game to you, and I play
every time you set up the board

One-sided
blindsided
beauty is in the eye of the beholder
and I've been beholding you
for so long

Moving on to someone new
just trying to forget you