i died again.
i always think i've got it figured out and i can be saved, but i'm wrong
and it left
and it left
i knew it all along
i knew it all along
she was no answer
(you were no answer)
at least in herself

she was a reminder to me of
LIFE/BEING ALIVE/NOT LIVING THIS WAKING DEATH

i don't wanna say it
i don't wanna say it
(but)

you put all your eggs in one basket and that baskets me and i am a SHITTY basket

i want to breathe and not be crushed
i want to not mess up

but it may be too late
no no it's never too late!

i'd rather die completely than just in part

i want that life back
i want that life back

i can't expect anyone to understand
i am alone, and my loneliness is carved in stone
I AM ALONE
I AM ALONE
and it's time i acted like it
i am alone
i am alone
i am alone

i want to breathe and not be crushed
i want to not mess up

i wanna live again