AS LIFE PROCEEDS, I WOULD IDEALLY LIKE THE REAL ME TO SHOW ITSELF MORE OFTEN, BEING LESS SELECTIVE, FOR THE OTHER ME WHICH IS SO UGLY AND GROTESQUE, TO DWINDLE AND PERISH. REALISTICALLY THAT WON’T HAPPEN…

SINKING SAND SWIRLING IN MY THROAT, VENOM FLOATS, MY MEMORIES OVERDOSE, AS A CHILD A SPLIT REALITY, LICKING MY WOUNDS FROM PLAYGROUND BRUTALITY, SYMPTOMS SHOW, FEELING COMATOSE, LOST CONTROL, STILL MY CANCER GROWS, ABANDON HOPE, ALL EMOTIONS STARVE, ON TIGHTENED SKIN, MY MESSAGE IS CARVED, MY MESSAGE IS CARVED.

HEALTH OF MIND, LIKE SPARKLING GOLD, COLOUR BLIND AND YET I’M SOLD, FERTILE BREED, SPEWING LIKE A SUPER BULIMIC.

RELEASE THE TORMENT, UNLEASH MY DEMONS, MIX EMOTIONS LIKE BLOOD, SWEAT AND SEMEN, REGURGITATE MY HOLY GRAIL, SUCK AND SWALLOW MY MOLOTOV COCKTAIL. REPRESSED POISON NOW FINDING ITS RELEASE, MY LIFE LOSES YET ONE MORE PIECE, INTERNAL CLUES NOW TWISTING INTO FORM, DRAGGED THROUGH THE MILL, LIKE A RAGDOLL INTO THORNS, RAGDOLL INTO THORNS.

I REJECT IT ALL, I REJECT IT ALL, I REJECT IT ALL, I REJECT IT ALL, I REJECT IT ALL, I REJECT IT ALL.

OVERWHELMING, RAGING SELF LOATHING, SUCKING AT MY SOUL LIKE A STARVING LEECH, SWALLOW THEN VOMIT, SWALLOW THEN SPEW, IT’S MY FRAME OF MIND, MY FAVOURITE VIEW.