outside. snow turns to slush in a day. the taxis drive by in their elegant way. i could take it. if i knew april was there. in oahu. the orchids arranged in her hair. i think of us out in the ocean at sunset. the saltwater stinging our eyes. i drink from the image of april at sixteen. i wish i was leaving tonight. i gather my courage. and send myself off on a flight. hibiscus so high that it blocks out the sun. do we ever know love like we do when we're young. i found her where rock is eroded by waves. as i left her. asleep in her watery grave. i think of us out in the ocean at sunset. the saltwater stinging our eyes. i drink from the image of april at sixteen. my lover. my hero. my life. i've never recovered. i miss you so dearly tonighy