I wanna sacrific and sabotage
And not follow through
Like nothing's worth saving
If I can't have you
And there are dogs in my dreams
And pins in the seams
There are words in my hair
And you know what they mean

Last night shocked me and held me 'round tight
It stopped all my shaking and filled me with night
And it took me away, inside little grieving
And made me a pardon to giving you freedom

The muses have moved in with you
And I hope you sleep well
Open
When the dawn cracks up
You'll wake for her
And I am broken

I am all at once alone now
And it's glowing and surreal
See, my heart's small and smoky
This is all a thing we feel
And they loan me a photograph
Encoded in their language
Means to them I'm failing
And I'm giving up in anguish

You'd be satsified to see me
Head bowed and gray
Much weaker and stronger
It's me that they say
But I haven't given up on losing
I haven't given up the game
I haven't given up on waking
To the echo of your name

And I'd stop by the church tonight
But I'm not a believer
And I'd tell you the truth sometimes
But I am a better deceiver