My virgin wrists look for some pain to borrow.
My open mouth looks for some shit to swallow. Anticipation of regret.
It's coming tomorrow.
Shaped by your hand, do your best to make me hollow.
I lie awake. Play out the day's mistakes.
I need a reason to start this day.
Am I the only one who feels this way?
Am I the only one afraid to face...
It's not your fault-It's mine. I'm guilty of your crime.
At least for you it's true. I hurt myself just to lie to you.
I hurt myself just to make it smooth.
I swallow glass and smile. Just to please you.
Just to impress you.
Never felt so alive as when I've felt like dying.
Never fell so hard as when I failed at trying.
The only friends I need are ink and privacy.
Living in fears. Feeling inferior.
Acid burns in the back of my throat.
I think I swallowed my heart. That's what it feels like.
Eyes are papercuts.
Salt burns my mind. Your eyes are razor blades.
Cut me like suicide. Your eyes are razorblades.
Sometimes it hurts just to be alive.
Please don't recognize this fear.
Swallow some bravery and go for it all.
Beat my fist against the wall. The wall keeps winning.
And the room starts spinning.
Easier to make noise than to stare straight ahead.
Easier to hide than to get out of bed.
Pick myself up one more time.
Sometimes it hurts to try. Your eyes are razorblades.
Cut me like suicide. Paralyze me with fear.