through it all and in the end, i find that it's easier to break than it is to bend because its hard enough when you say that you'll fucking say it anyway. with a set-up like that, you know you aren't in for a punchline because this won't be a joke and words thrown from the lips will leave you broken. and maybe being strong is the right thing to be but i've always been a little girl about things and being weak has always been a good excuse for substance abuse. and i've found that everyone has every good goddamn reason in the world to have a drink once in a while. and i know that i've had all of the fun in the world dulling everything out and sinking into the haze of the shattered. and sinking into the haze of the addicted.