you should have showed me
a long long time ago
instead you kept it in your heart
for those rough ass last sad ass days
meaning so much to a boy

oh he enjoyed those weekends
never lost his faith in you
and never put you down
fuck no I feel shame
as theyæ?®e stitching up your stomach
will I ever gain the power
or the sperm to be a better man
plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips
oh daddy
now look at me I'm all grown up
Iæ?¦ so scared to be alone
crazy people point their fingers
ha ha
I hate the smell of funeral homes
I'm doing alright for being a bastard
it's ok he'll be back
she said so sweetly and so mad
he's going out to catch a disease
grandma grips her rosary beads
surprises me with hot fudge and
some late night channel 9
The Wizard of Oz was on she helps to keep me occupied
I feel shame
as theyæ?®e stitching up your stomach
will I ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man
plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips
oh daddy
ah you left me so fragile
hollow and so yellow
dig you up and say
I'm a man today
sometimes I've forgotten
how you smiled while rotting in your deathbed
why daddy let me cry
why
you woke me up
you woke me up........5:30