if i don't sweat it out before it sinks in, on this eleven six of two thousand, i will pray all night. i won't close my eyes. i will abandon all signs of a healthy life. i won't rest until you, rise and, shine in their eyes. and it will come in waves until my dying day. and i can only wish that you could live through these words i say. you know i've given in to the getting on. i've grown with the getting on. it's grown on me, the getting on. i try to pray before i sleep. you know i've given in to the getting on. i've grown with the getting on. it's grown on me, the getting on. i cry myself to sleep, and i wake from this dream in a haze. nut this was not a dream, and reality hurts. last night, you spoke one word to me. that one word, you spoke through me. please understand that this was the worst night of my life. forgiven but never forgotten. please understand that no blame has been placed. in all you gave, have i been forgiven? forgive me. please forgive me.