what didn't kill me
left me cold enough to live this lie
now I drift desensitized reality has
had it's way with this time

confidence now lost in comfort
of familiar habits
I know it's destructive
but I can not get past this barricade
I boiled up inside too high
I've got to pull out of numbing phase
hold down this fear
push back self doubt
I'm most afraid that I will fall to failure
so much to say can't get it out
it's all a waste chaste
forced to indignant taste
self propelled rejection
it's more than I can take (right now)
so sick of hiding from what I can't face
so sick of hiding from what I can't face
I must get through this wall of insecurity
the thought of rejection more than
I can take and i've got to get out of this numb phase
set numb aside