I see myself with nothing to do
Nothing to show for the last year or two
I don? have much left that I can prove

I try not to dwell on past mistakes
I try not to believe my life? been a waste
But it comes to haunt me everyday

Envy fills my mind
Envy takes up all of my precious time
It leaves me with nothing else

I've lost my pride
Jealousy has become part of my life
And everyone else can tell

Suffering regrets of things that I have done
I don? feel content with second to me
I feel like I let down everyone