Extract these thoughts from my head withdraw these feelings from my heart planned answers always followed with more questions I've seen this landscape before try not to look but I am drawn if I could only ignore it you didn't slip through my fingers I just spread them apart a clove of smoke that starts out strong and fades away before too long expectations set so high too far to see with squinting eyes how honorable were the attempts to reach the goal I could never come close to cleanse me of this unbearable reality cure the sickness that's so much a part of me cathedrals standing tall to demonstrate denial as infection ever grows the victims only smile the beginning of the end in the shell of defiance the truth is safely hidden the definition of reliance a cancer of meager beginnings the product of its surroundings the destruction of natural purity a virus foreign to empathy