And Desolated Trails Of Anguish

I was plunged once again in cruellest treachery
Mindtorned as those whispers of forthcoming sufferance
Have pierced the silence , as well as my putrid soul

The soul is leaking painfully , filling the remnants in grief
Corrupted and entangled ,drifting abroad the shallow graves
So silent and imperceptible are my only hopes

Tired and overwhelmed by this never ending cycle

To extinguish what once torn my existence

Of futile deceptions generated by an envy of purity
Infused in darkness , bearing pallid shades of gallows dementia
Which cannot be attained here, which let me wrecked ashore
Here , light and darkness have gone forever

Always in the darkest corners of my ,mind , lies hope
To lacerate the flesh , till the life pours in nothingness
To leek in purest despair , expelling life forever
To break the cycle once , to feel extasy one last time...
As I drown in this final soliloquy , knives are buried within flesh
Blood splashes , staining beauty in everlasting misery

Pale , vivid disdain bestruck and grasped my hearth
Eviscerated hopes and my will to purify

Without salvation , I awaken , drowned and strangled by melancholia
Tore and choked by coldness of life , ashamed and silent

The world around me , so dark and fragile
Dying , raped and slaughtered by my lesserlife

Cursing this flesh entangling my true nature ,
At last I enter my domain , where demons have been slaughtered
Where angels have lost the warmth of life , pallid and darkened
Where all is pure , covered by a fog of wintry grey
And bleeding I'll meet those who've torn my conceptions
Who've shown me life , entrapped in a cage of despaired emptiness

For I'm draped in shades of forlorn essence
Muted and empowered by an enraged howling beast within
I became a fallen one , I plunged in the abomination
Silence hovered , pierced sometimes with shrieks
I arose soaked in filth , of my own mediocrity

Blinding my obedience and sickening all that is unpure
Wielding wisdom unrestrainable , forsaken my own light
All that I touch , lays lifeless in putrid failure
Scorched by chagrin of a dying mind , I do not belong here...

Forsaken was my existence , Death mocked my weakness
Agonizing in inextinguishable raping of my conceptions
For this sufferance was above the extinction of flesh
I'm a fallen one , enemy to all...)

But those thoughts vanishes with hopes , as whispers change
Crawling in a landscape of ashes and failures
To harsh revelations , where the pain is unbearable
Embedded in a purity so harsh , my hate is unbearable

Laying numbed , unable to react , as my soul shrieks
Damned within cursed mesmerizing non-sense
As it pleads not to die , cannot end my own nightmare
Trying in vain to sooth the sufferance in grotesque futility
And again I reenter the cycle , as death mocks me
Life has denied me , obscurity has drained my will

For my weakness , but I laugh back , for my strength

Pain as opened me her arms for the last time

To not succumb in what all engrieved souls did
To fall at heart of all I fought for , in Death
I may find soothness , but never peace of mind
For the discord engraved is too present and unbearable
And perhaps Death disguised as those whispers
Knowing my weakness , is trying to end my life
Pain shall forever flow within my essence.