dont lift me up. your strong intent on dropping me back down. are you like this? afraid to be yourself. and if you somehow get through all of this without hating yourself for all of it and you know that i will hate you enough for the both of us. spent that night alone, the first in a long time. forgotten all the loneliness and darkness in my life. but you lost a friend. pretend that you let go to drown in a sea of regret and no one knows that im alone and i cant blame anyone but you. except loving ones for me and now i know the truth.